The Ramblings of a Strange Little Pixie

1. I actually completed my am routine no problems this morning! Even made eggs and biscuits for breakfast!
2. I have completed a load of uniforms, just need to iron a couple for work, one load of whites in the dryer one in the wash.
3. Running the dishwasher with a cycle of vinegar also the coffee maker.
4. Made a list for November of things I need and would like to accomplish.
5. Gave myself a facial
6. Clipped coupons

Need to do….

• Cook some chicken. I making three batches of chicken. Two for dinner and lunch and one to freeze.
• Clean dining room and kitchen
• Make a menu and shopping list
• Clean guest bathroom…maybe…depends on how productive I am..
• Relax!

Not to bad of a day. I was going to be productive yesterday but that was a major fail!!! But I did have a great night with friends last night.

I was productive on getting my closet cleaned out. I had way too many clothes that i haven’t worn in years. 4 bags of shoes and clothes!!!!!!!!!!! I can’ t wait to drop them off at the women’s shelter tomorrow!

So I also made a very detailed list so I can stay on track because I have been very off track lately……

*Morning List*

1. Take medications
2. Feed cats
3. Eat and make breakfast
4. Pray Fajr
5. Start a load of laundry
6. Make the bed
7. Clean the litter box
8. Run Dishwasher

*Afternoon List if I’m home…*

1. Prepare and eat lunch
2. Pray Zuhr and Asr
3. Pick up Mail

*Evening list*

1. Pray Maghrib and Isha
2. Check Calendar, make  to-do list
3. Layout clothes
4. Gather up bags and items for tomorrow
5. Make lunch, set up coffee pot
6. Make sure there are no dishes in the sink, wipe down counters, sweep and swifter the floor.
7. Clean litter boxes
8. Tidy up the house: 15 min. max.

*Monday*

1. Wash car and fill with gas
2. Load of Uniforms
3. Gym: Treadmill and Abs
4. Clean kitchen

*Tuesday*

1. Load of Whites
2. Errands: Target Drugstore and the Butcher
3. Clean Dining Room
4. Gym: StairMaster, Arms

*Wednesday*

1. Load of lights
2. Zone clean and organize
3. Clean bathrooms
4. Run

*Thursday*

1. Bank and other Misc. errands
2. Make Weekly to-do list
3. Clean living room and patio
4. Water Plants
5. Gym: Epileptic machine, legs

*Friday*

1. Load of darks
2. Pay bills
3. Masjid
4. Errands: Publix, Post office, Costco if needed
5. Gym: Kickboxing class
6. Date night!!!:)

*Saturday*

1. Load of jeans
2. Make menu
3. Craft time

*Sunday*

1. Load of towels
2. Change and wash sheets
3. Brush cats
4. Clip coupons
5. Paperwork
6. Clean bedroom and office

Of course I don’t expect everything to get done on the list and I’m not going to beat myself up trying to get it done but it’s a start….I use to be so productive and organized I don’t know what happened!!!

That’s what I have to keep telling myself these days. Things are rough but I have things to be thankful for….

1. I have a nice car that gets me where I need to go.
2. I have a job that pays not great but decent and has job security.
3. I have a wonderful family even though they drive me nuts.
4. I have a roof over my head.
5. I have food in my fridge.
6. I have my health, well unless you count mental, hahahaha.

Now if I could just have a winning lotto ticket….:)

I have the next few days off and I’m so happy because my schedule afterwords is going to suck. The holiday season is coming and that means BUSY at work. I’m hoping I can pick up some overtime but we’ll see how I feel. I need the money but it drains my spirit so much. I wish I could find another job somewhere else besides the hospital.

So on my list today…..

1. Make brownies and some side dish. We are going to a friends house tonight for a barbecue. It will be nice to hang out with good friends and just relax!
2. Do a couple loads of laundry
3. Straighten up the apartment
4. Make my budget for November, I can believe how fast this month flew by….
5. Clean off my craft table and go through one box in my computer room. I’m trying to get this room done by mid-November before mom gets home.
6. Make a menu
7. RELAX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

• Yesterday was my birthday. I really can’t believe I’m 34. When the hell did that happen????? Of course I was telling everyone I was going to be 35. hell, I guess I lost track after 32…..
• I had a great birthday. I had dinner with DH at Outback, love their salmon and I go there just for the bread!:)
• I didn’t ask for much. I got my WI early and them mom sent me a box from harry and davids. YUM! I asked for a lamp from Target from DH. I’m easy to please this year, lol!
• We have finally found an apartment!!! We went for a drive last night after dinner and we saw this place behind DH’s work. I didn’t even know it was there. It is PERFECT. Huge and really nice. LOTS of storage. I LOVE  it. It has the perfect bath/bedroom combo for mom when she’s here.
• I still hate my job. It super sucked again Sunday and Monday. Super bad Monday as in I had freaking 6 patients. not for long but it was way out of line, especially when someone else only had 3. Yeah, great patient safety there charge nurse.
• The weather is perfect.
• I’m officially broke. It sucks ass, majorly. Every time we get ahead something happens and we are back to ground zero, except we are like negative zero…..sigh
• I wished that I could just have a vacation from life.
• I can’t believe that my brother or my sister or my mother in law didn’t call to wish me a happy birthday. And my brother and sis wonder why I don’t call them anymore on theirs….but I still love them, lol

It’s 4:55 am right now and I just called into work because I need a mental health day. Seriously.

I had the worst day ever yesterday. I cried all the way home. I came to the realization that I really hate my job. I HATE my job. Things are not done the way they should be and when you try to there are always roadblocks. I’m getting tired of being treated like shit when I all I want to do is help people. Now I know why so many nurses hate their job. I love the fact that people can acknowledge the fact that you are super busy but it doesn’t matter because they should come first. Yes, your tissues are that important!

I’m having a rough time right now. I am having a birthday soon and it’s hitting me hard. I think I’m having a midlife crisis or something. I dunno.  I am not where I want to be and it’ s so frustrating.

I’m scared

• That I will be stuck in this job I hate forever
• that as much as I love being a nurse that maybe I choose wrong?
• I hate where I live and I’m worried that I may never have a house
• I’m scared that I won’t be a mom
• I’m afraid that I’ll never be truly happy again because I feel like I’m becoming a very bitter person.

I need to do a lot of praying right now because I am so freaking lost……

Love the new start of the month. It feels like a new beginning. I also love October. It’s my birthday month and back home it’s when the feel of fall really sets in. Oh, how I miss the turning leaves and cool air. I must be homesick because I really want to see some color! It was a little cool this morning. I hope it stays that way. It has been super hot here.  I have 4 days off. Pretty awesome considering that I just a week off! But I’m not complaining!:)  My goal for this month is to work on me. I need to focus on me and really get into my happy place.

I went to the eye doctor already, I had been putting it off for way to long! I also got in to see the doctor. I love my new primary. She is awesome. I had blood levels drawn Monday so I’m just waiting for the results. Don’t think my thyroid levels are right but we’ll see.  I had an EKG and bone density done. EKG was normal (woo-hoo!) put I had to start taking calcium supplements (boo!). One of the joys of not having a thyroid….

So I want to get a massage this month, a pedi and I need to see the GYN. Wish of course I never like see that one but what women does???? I also have to get in to see an Ortho doc for my knee. I’ve been having problems and it’s been swelling up really bad.

So, I’m off to enjoy some computer time and then it’s off to clean my apartment!

I have two and a half days left of vacation. I took the week of because I needed some time off. It’s not going so well. I have to much crap going on and people are driving me crazy. Nice use of vacation time, I tell ya.

• My apartment is cleaned. That itself is awesome…
• Laundry is caught up!
• I got canceled today! I got the call at 5:27. It kinda sucked because I had to cut my night short last night if I had known that I was being canceled I would have stayed at the birthday party longer:(
• I have dinner in the oven and just browned a batch of ground beef to have in the freezer. I’m making baked Rotini tonight. So easy!
• I’m making blueberry bread to store in the freezer and chicken burgers tomorrow. I am determined to have stuff in the freezer!
• I have three days off!:)
• I hope we don’t get any hurricanes. I have the first 5 days of Ramadan off and I will be so bummed if I have to go in. BELCH
• I bought a beautiful black abaya yesterday. I wanted one to just throw over jeans when I go to the masjid and I found one cheap and good quality. I had been searching the internet but didn’t find anything I liked. I also got a nice book of Hadiths for DH that he wanted.
• My nieces left yesterday.:( My MIL went with them. She will be spending this Ramadan with her daughters which I’ really happy about but I’m really going to miss her. Also, DH’s cousin is moving 2 hours away the first day of Ramadan. So sad….
• I am slowly working on my computer room. I have one bookcase and my desk organized. I’m working on second bookcase tonight. I have found a daybed from Ikea to put in here. My MIL was going to give me hers when she moves but that was a year ago and I can’t wait any longer. I would like gues to have a place to sleep!
• I am so excited about Ramadan!!! I will post about that tomorrow.
• I got my birthday present early, My mommy got me a WI! I have been wanting one forever and one showed up on my doorstep yesterday!:)
• I’m off to scrapbook!!! I am doing really well on keeping up to date on my book, now I just need to get caught up!

Ciao!!!!!!!!!!!

• We went to Orlando for a weekend in July. It was fun. Saw old friends from Chicago, went to a huge family wedding and got to spend some time together. We even took the cats!:)
• My nieces are here and we are having a blast. I’ve taken them to the zoo, build a bear and the beach. We are headed to the beach in Miami on Saturday. Yeah!
• Work is crazy and busy. What’s new. I really hate my job sometimes. I love being a nurse I just hate my particular job. Why did I pick tele?!?
• I got my year review. It was good, I got my raise. All is good.
• I’m actually keeping my scrapbook up to date. I am making time, though I am following behind on my goal of organizing.
• I’m very excited about this Ramadan. I have the first five days off and I took vacation time for the last week. I tried for two weeks but I could only get one. But hey I’m happy. Someone tried to switch days with me and I had to explain that I will not because of Ramadan and they still try to get  me to switch, WTH? If I make my schedule a certain way it’s for a freaking reason…..
• I am going to start cooking next week. I’m going to make some quiches, breads, a lasagna, meatloaf, and some chicken dishes to freeze. Wish me luck!
• I am also going to keep a small scrapbook/journal this Ramadan. I figure this will keep me motivated. Last year was miserable for me. I guess because of the new job and I was super stressed.
• I have insomnia. I can’t not sleep without waking up 3-4 times and then I have the hardest time falling back to sleep. I’m going crazy! I can’t see the doctor until Sept. and I have tried everything! But I’m really happy I got an appointment with this Doctor. She is is excellent. She use to be an RN and from what I heard she actually spends time with you and LISTENS!

Well, I’m off to enjoy the rest of my day! Back to work tomorrow!!! But at least I have the weekend off! And it’s going to be a fun weekend! The beach on Saturday and a friends baby shower on Sunday!!! Ciao!

So much to do so little time…..

• Work is work. Crazy as usual. It’s good yet bad. I got my year review. I got my raise:) Not much of a raise but hey it’s still a raise! I got a really good review and was quite surprised…..
• I’m going to a wedding this week in Orlando. Still haven’t found an outfit. I have something I can wear but I wanted something new. Everything was so tacky! So I’m hitting the stores in Orlando the day before. They usually have a better selection anyway. Our indian clothing is very limited here.:(
• I am slowly getting on track to keeping a clean and organized home. I am working on my Computer room closet and I’m almost done. I store my nice dresses, abayas, shalwars and coats in there and it was a hot mess! I now have room to store extra items such as toilet paper and paper towels.
• I have done several scrapbook pages and I’m slowly getting caught up with my 2009 book. It’s coming a long nicely! Of course that might change after this weekend!
• I have started working out again. One step at a time. My legs and abs are KILLING me!!!
• Well, I’m off. I have a million and one things to do and I work Wed. and Thursday and I’m gone until Monday!