Tuesday Ramblings
- I’m going to the hairdresser today. Something I haven’t done since Feb.!!!!!!!!!! I really can’t afford it right now but my hair is looking like crap. I always feel better when I have my hair done.
- 17 days till Trinidad!!!
- I was a very lazy bum yesterday. So today I will have to clean. BLAH. I also have laundry to do which I don’t want to do.:(
- My plan of spending the day scrapbooking was ruined. So maybe if I have some free time today I can get some pages done.
- My mom is stuck in Limbo with her job. She had some major drama and now she isn’t sure if she’s going to California or Florida. And she needs to be out of her apartment this morning!! I’m really not liking her travel company right now. They have really treated her like crap for the last year. She has been with them for 4 years and they were wonderful but now, not so good. Talked to a traveler in orientation that had the same recruiter as my mom and didn’t have nice things to say about her. Needless to say she is with another company and much happier.
- Having problems picking a wedding date. I’m about to say screw it and call the whole thing off.
- I have lots of people I need to call or at least email. Kinda been ignoring people for the last couple of weeks. I need to sit down today and make a list of things that I need to do. One of them is return phone calls!!!
- I’ve been in a crappy mood lately and I don’t know why. I need to get my thyroid levels rechecked but don’t have the insurance right now. I might have to go to a walk in to get a refill and then wait it out. BLAH! I wished I still had my thyroid. It really is such a pain in the ass not having it. I know it could be worse but it sucks.
- I work tomorrow and Thursday and then I’m off Fri, Sat, and Sun.! Woo-hoo three day weekend! I’m thinking of asking for just another week with my preceptor. Just because they are counting my first week as my four weeks but I really think I need one more week on the floor. I’m sure they will let me. They said to let them know if I thought I needed another week, I’m going to talk to them tomorrow.
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- I’m loving my new job but at the same time it is so freaking me out. I feel like the worst nurse ever. EVER!
- I had the neediest, crankiest patients all week.
- My feet are killing me. I mean P-A-I-N. It hurts to walk. I’m going tomorrow to get some new shoes. My feet start hurting so bad by 4pm. It feels weird writing that now, which is just weird.
- I picked up my first paycheck! Direct Deposit doesn’t start until the next paycheck. Very nice that my bank is right next to my hospital.
- I picked up a couple of uniforms. So, so happy that I don’t have to wear navy. It was a store that I’ve never been in and they really didn’t have a lot in my size:(
- I pick up my wedding dress tomorrow!
- I finally found some invitations. I also found programs. 40 invitations and response cards for $34. Not bad! DH cousin works at a printing place so I will have him print them for me. I also found some nice save the date cards that you can put a pic in.
- It was freaking hot today and I think I lost 5pounds in sweat.
- I got to do an IV yesterday but the vein blew on me. :/ At least I tried.
- I have the same netflix movies for two months. I think it’s time to get of my lazy bum and return them.
- My cat broke my one and only living room lamp. And he managed to break my pot of blue bonnets and injured my poor gnome that was sitting on the pot. I thought cats were suppose to lower one’s blood pressure not increase it.
- I got to see a picc line insertion. So freaking cool.
- When I tell people where I worked before, I keep hearing nothing but bad things. The only ones who say anything good are people who worked in critical care
- I am so sick of EHarmony commercials. Seriously. If I see anyone of the people from those commercials, I’m so slapping them. They are so fake!
Wedding
I finally figured out why I want this reception so much. It’s not that I’m about bling and show. I’m trying to do things on small scale and I don’t want to waste money or go into debt over this wedding. But I do want it to be nice and to be surrounded by family and friends. I want a CELEBRATION. Plain and simple. I didn’t get that with the nikkah.
As much as I loved the nikkah and had fun on the day of it, was in one word a struggle. A fight over the lengha, the cake, the food, the invitations. This was not about me, or even DH. It was my MIL’s party. I didn’t choose anything. Well, except my outfit. I put my foot down on that one. I wanted red and not white. Everyone was insisting I wear white because red is a hindu color. WTFever. I didn’t get to pick the decorations out, I didn’t have a say in much really. Everyone else just kinda took over and there I was sitting on the sidelines looking in on this craziness. Also, I had one person there for me. My mom. I didn’t have my family or any of my friends because it was on Christmas day. It was originally suppose to be a handful of people and esculated from there. I wouldn’t need this so much if I was able to have those I loved around me. I think DH’s family forgets that I’m not theirs and that I have another life. A life that doesn’t include them.
I find it very, very hard balancing two cultures, which I find odd since I’m white, blond haired American girl. I never in a million years thought I would be doing this. It’s like I live a double life. And sometimes it’s just exhausting……
Ramblings…
I spent most of my day in bed yesterday. I awoke at my normal time of 5am decided to sleep for another hour and that hour turned into a nap till 12:15.:/ I spent the rest of the day over at MIL eating burgers, playing with the baby and playing with Sparklers. It was a fun, low key 4th of July. It also rained like crazy so we didn’t see any fireworks. But stepping out last night to come home felt like I was in some war zone with all the booms and smoke. Craziness.
I’m spending the day cleaning my apartment. It’s amazing how messy it can get when I’m hardly here. I have plans to do some studying and get some scrapping done while I’m off. I’m spending 4 hours with the IV nurse Tues. Super excited about that. I love the training here. I had three patients Thursday and next week she will be giving me a full load. Really nervous but I need it because I will be going on my own in two weeks. But they said they can give me more time if needed but I’m hoping that I don’t.
I might be postponing our reception. I had to have a long talk with DH yesterday. He sometimes has his head in the clouds about things and money can be one of them. He totally gets it from his mom. So I pretty sure that I will lose my deposit for the reception place but it’s either that or have no wedding reception at all. I know it shouldn’t matter but I can’t help it, I want my reception. I really didn’t want a nikkha at his mom’s house and this was suppose to be a compromise and I’m not giving it up. If I knew it would have been this much of a pain I would have never had the nikkha. We were married Islamically but not legally and no one seems to get the importance of us being legally married. So frustrating…..
Happy Once Again…
I’m feeling much better these days. I guess I have relieved some stress by quitting. Also am feeling less worn out and moody. I got my lab results back last week and my thyroid levels were off. So she upped my dose and I’m feeling back to my old self again..
I was up late making a photo book of my friends wedding last night. It was last weekend and it was such a beautiful wedding. It was small and very intimate. She made a beautiful bride!! I’ll post a couple of pics later. Of course none of people!!:) But everything turned out really nice. Except how they set up the cake. I don’t know what the hotel was thinking but they put in the corner and no one could see the cake cutting!
I need to work on what kind of flowers I would like this week and find a couple of bridesmaids dresses. I have 6 months to go!!!!!!!!!! I also need to make some appointments with florist.
I’m going to see Wicked tonight. Pretty excited about that. I haven’t been to a show in years. So I’m going to spend my day working on some stuff in the apartment, uploading photos and filling out more applications!
