10 Things.
1. I’m not feeling the Ramadan spirit this year and it’s making me really sad. I don’t know if it’s because I’m stressed or what but it just doesn’t feel like Ramadan to me. I’m making an effort to make it to the masjid tonight. I’m going to try and make it at least two nights a week, insha’allah.
2. Me and DH have been fighting way too much lately. I think we aren’t seeing each other enough. I think he forgets he’s not single sometimes and it irritates me to no end and then we fight. And he calls me cranky but if he would just realize that he’s being an a*S I wouldn’t be a grump.
3. I hate Telemetry. End of story. I mean I HATE it. I like the hospital and I have great support and I love that I’m learning so much but seriously, I hate it. I want to be in ICU so bad now.
4. We’ve got Coldplay tickets!!! We are going with another couple in November. So excited!!!!!!! I was suppose to see Coldplay back in 2005 and had tickets but I had a pharm exam the day after so I had to give up my ticket. I was heartbroken.
5. I’m praying that Ike will not be as bad as they say. All I can say is crap. I have about 7 gallons of water, tons of cat food, lots of tuna and of course tons of junk. I’m on the B team so I don’t have to be at the hospital during the hurricane this time. I need to pack up my photos and scrapbooks and take them over to MIL.
6. My cat is getting huge. He just turned one in June and he weighs 18 pounds. I hope that some of it fur. His fur is also getting thicker and longer which means I have to brush him more often and he of course hates the brush.
7. I’m a little ticked off that I haven’t heard from my brother or sister in months. I haven’t heard from lots of people in months.
8. Just got a call. I guess we are invited to an iftar tonight. Looks, like I might not be making it to the masjid tonight. Ugh.
9. All my plants on my patio died. I finally had some peppers on my pepper plant and they all freaking died on me. Not sure what happened but everything’s dead. As soon as the storm passes I need to replant my herbs and get some new plants.
10. I’m missing my nephews and nieces a lot. I miss having the kids around. Also, I still have baby fever. Not good because we aren’t ready for a baby but I have it.
Tuesday Ramblings
- I’m going to the hairdresser today. Something I haven’t done since Feb.!!!!!!!!!! I really can’t afford it right now but my hair is looking like crap. I always feel better when I have my hair done.
- 17 days till Trinidad!!!
- I was a very lazy bum yesterday. So today I will have to clean. BLAH. I also have laundry to do which I don’t want to do.:(
- My plan of spending the day scrapbooking was ruined. So maybe if I have some free time today I can get some pages done.
- My mom is stuck in Limbo with her job. She had some major drama and now she isn’t sure if she’s going to California or Florida. And she needs to be out of her apartment this morning!! I’m really not liking her travel company right now. They have really treated her like crap for the last year. She has been with them for 4 years and they were wonderful but now, not so good. Talked to a traveler in orientation that had the same recruiter as my mom and didn’t have nice things to say about her. Needless to say she is with another company and much happier.
- Having problems picking a wedding date. I’m about to say screw it and call the whole thing off.
- I have lots of people I need to call or at least email. Kinda been ignoring people for the last couple of weeks. I need to sit down today and make a list of things that I need to do. One of them is return phone calls!!!
- I’ve been in a crappy mood lately and I don’t know why. I need to get my thyroid levels rechecked but don’t have the insurance right now. I might have to go to a walk in to get a refill and then wait it out. BLAH! I wished I still had my thyroid. It really is such a pain in the ass not having it. I know it could be worse but it sucks.
- I work tomorrow and Thursday and then I’m off Fri, Sat, and Sun.! Woo-hoo three day weekend! I’m thinking of asking for just another week with my preceptor. Just because they are counting my first week as my four weeks but I really think I need one more week on the floor. I’m sure they will let me. They said to let them know if I thought I needed another week, I’m going to talk to them tomorrow.
Wedding
I finally figured out why I want this reception so much. It’s not that I’m about bling and show. I’m trying to do things on small scale and I don’t want to waste money or go into debt over this wedding. But I do want it to be nice and to be surrounded by family and friends. I want a CELEBRATION. Plain and simple. I didn’t get that with the nikkah.
As much as I loved the nikkah and had fun on the day of it, was in one word a struggle. A fight over the lengha, the cake, the food, the invitations. This was not about me, or even DH. It was my MIL’s party. I didn’t choose anything. Well, except my outfit. I put my foot down on that one. I wanted red and not white. Everyone was insisting I wear white because red is a hindu color. WTFever. I didn’t get to pick the decorations out, I didn’t have a say in much really. Everyone else just kinda took over and there I was sitting on the sidelines looking in on this craziness. Also, I had one person there for me. My mom. I didn’t have my family or any of my friends because it was on Christmas day. It was originally suppose to be a handful of people and esculated from there. I wouldn’t need this so much if I was able to have those I loved around me. I think DH’s family forgets that I’m not theirs and that I have another life. A life that doesn’t include them.
I find it very, very hard balancing two cultures, which I find odd since I’m white, blond haired American girl. I never in a million years thought I would be doing this. It’s like I live a double life. And sometimes it’s just exhausting……
