The Ramblings of a Strange Little Pixie

Happy Halloween!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

• I will be sitting at home relaxing because I’m working tomorrow. I really wanted to go to a party but I also have to work the next two days and I will be hating life if I go.
• Work was not bad for a Friday! I actually made it out on time!
• I got a lot done today. Made it to the bank and grocery store, a load of laundry was done, bills were paid, fruit cut up and ready to eat, cleaned out one box of decorations.
• Cleaning out bins of decorations is a goal I’m working on. I have way to much crap and I don’t decorate for the holidays anymore. A little here and there but nothing major. I’m donating a lot!
• I’m on the lookout for some really cute star ornaments. I want to pick some up to have for Ramadan next year.
• I can’t wait, I have three days of in a row this week!
• I’m on the hunt for a dresser that I can make over. I really want one to put in my dining room. I was pricing buffets and yeah, I don’t think so….
• I’m super excited about the extra hour of sleep I will be getting. I love to sleep. I think it’s because of the whole insomnia thing, when you can’t do it easy it becomes precious.
• Ok, cool weather were are you? Hello, it’s going to be November tomorrow, shouldn’t you make an appearance now? My a/c and bank account would much appreciate it, Thank you!

I loved hearing my DH tell me “Wow, the house looks nice”.  It’s far from perfect and it’s still cluttered (wish I really hate) but at least someone’s happy!:)

I stuck to my routine last night and when I woke up there really wasn’t much to do so I could actually focus on my priority to-do list and just RELAX and spend time with DH before he went to work.  So much easier to do things than just let them pile up, I’ve been way too lazy lately.

I’m slowly conquering my monster of laundry. I washed two loads yesterday and I’m on my third and final load of darks!  I’m going to put in a load before work and hopefully DH will remember to take over from there. I have a huge pile of jeans that need to be done.

So I’m spending the rest of the day working on my to-do list…

1. Clean one bathroom
2. Make out my dinner menu for the week
3. Make out my weekly to-do list
4. Work on my November Budget
5. Make a list of birthday cards that need to be sent out for November
6. Make a list of things I need to buy to update my wardrobe ( a very small list)
7. Work on a frame that I want to turn into a chalk board for my kitchen

I fell in love and I fell hard for this bag. It’s way, way out of my price range but I’m thinking every girl should have at least one since they are a very nice staple to a wardrobe and they do last for ever it seems….

http://www.louisvuitton.com/us/flash/index.jsp?direct1=home_entry_us

I so am putting a wee bit aside each month for this bag. I have two girlfriends with ones similar and the are gorgeous but the black and white just didn’t do it for me but Red, oh my!!! One did save a little each month so if she can so can I!

1. I actually completed my am routine no problems this morning! Even made eggs and biscuits for breakfast!
2. I have completed a load of uniforms, just need to iron a couple for work, one load of whites in the dryer one in the wash.
3. Running the dishwasher with a cycle of vinegar also the coffee maker.
4. Made a list for November of things I need and would like to accomplish.
5. Gave myself a facial
6. Clipped coupons

Need to do….

• Cook some chicken. I making three batches of chicken. Two for dinner and lunch and one to freeze.
• Clean dining room and kitchen
• Make a menu and shopping list
• Clean guest bathroom…maybe…depends on how productive I am..
• Relax!

Not to bad of a day. I was going to be productive yesterday but that was a major fail!!! But I did have a great night with friends last night.

I was productive on getting my closet cleaned out. I had way too many clothes that i haven’t worn in years. 4 bags of shoes and clothes!!!!!!!!!!! I can’ t wait to drop them off at the women’s shelter tomorrow!

So I also made a very detailed list so I can stay on track because I have been very off track lately……

*Morning List*

1. Take medications
2. Feed cats
3. Eat and make breakfast
4. Pray Fajr
5. Start a load of laundry
6. Make the bed
7. Clean the litter box
8. Run Dishwasher

*Afternoon List if I’m home…*

1. Prepare and eat lunch
2. Pray Zuhr and Asr
3. Pick up Mail

*Evening list*

1. Pray Maghrib and Isha
2. Check Calendar, make  to-do list
3. Layout clothes
4. Gather up bags and items for tomorrow
5. Make lunch, set up coffee pot
6. Make sure there are no dishes in the sink, wipe down counters, sweep and swifter the floor.
7. Clean litter boxes
8. Tidy up the house: 15 min. max.

*Monday*

1. Wash car and fill with gas
2. Load of Uniforms
3. Gym: Treadmill and Abs
4. Clean kitchen

*Tuesday*

1. Load of Whites
2. Errands: Target Drugstore and the Butcher
3. Clean Dining Room
4. Gym: StairMaster, Arms

*Wednesday*

1. Load of lights
2. Zone clean and organize
3. Clean bathrooms
4. Run

*Thursday*

1. Bank and other Misc. errands
2. Make Weekly to-do list
3. Clean living room and patio
4. Water Plants
5. Gym: Epileptic machine, legs

*Friday*

1. Load of darks
2. Pay bills
3. Masjid
4. Errands: Publix, Post office, Costco if needed
5. Gym: Kickboxing class
6. Date night!!!:)

*Saturday*

1. Load of jeans
2. Make menu
3. Craft time

*Sunday*

1. Load of towels
2. Change and wash sheets
3. Brush cats
4. Clip coupons
5. Paperwork
6. Clean bedroom and office

Of course I don’t expect everything to get done on the list and I’m not going to beat myself up trying to get it done but it’s a start….I use to be so productive and organized I don’t know what happened!!!

That’s what I have to keep telling myself these days. Things are rough but I have things to be thankful for….

1. I have a nice car that gets me where I need to go.
2. I have a job that pays not great but decent and has job security.
3. I have a wonderful family even though they drive me nuts.
4. I have a roof over my head.
5. I have food in my fridge.
6. I have my health, well unless you count mental, hahahaha.

Now if I could just have a winning lotto ticket….:)

I have the next few days off and I’m so happy because my schedule afterwords is going to suck. The holiday season is coming and that means BUSY at work. I’m hoping I can pick up some overtime but we’ll see how I feel. I need the money but it drains my spirit so much. I wish I could find another job somewhere else besides the hospital.

So on my list today…..

1. Make brownies and some side dish. We are going to a friends house tonight for a barbecue. It will be nice to hang out with good friends and just relax!
2. Do a couple loads of laundry
3. Straighten up the apartment
4. Make my budget for November, I can believe how fast this month flew by….
5. Clean off my craft table and go through one box in my computer room. I’m trying to get this room done by mid-November before mom gets home.
6. Make a menu
7. RELAX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

• Yesterday was my birthday. I really can’t believe I’m 34. When the hell did that happen????? Of course I was telling everyone I was going to be 35. hell, I guess I lost track after 32…..
• I had a great birthday. I had dinner with DH at Outback, love their salmon and I go there just for the bread!:)
• I didn’t ask for much. I got my WI early and them mom sent me a box from harry and davids. YUM! I asked for a lamp from Target from DH. I’m easy to please this year, lol!
• We have finally found an apartment!!! We went for a drive last night after dinner and we saw this place behind DH’s work. I didn’t even know it was there. It is PERFECT. Huge and really nice. LOTS of storage. I LOVE  it. It has the perfect bath/bedroom combo for mom when she’s here.
• I still hate my job. It super sucked again Sunday and Monday. Super bad Monday as in I had freaking 6 patients. not for long but it was way out of line, especially when someone else only had 3. Yeah, great patient safety there charge nurse.
• The weather is perfect.
• I’m officially broke. It sucks ass, majorly. Every time we get ahead something happens and we are back to ground zero, except we are like negative zero…..sigh
• I wished that I could just have a vacation from life.
• I can’t believe that my brother or my sister or my mother in law didn’t call to wish me a happy birthday. And my brother and sis wonder why I don’t call them anymore on theirs….but I still love them, lol

It’s 4:55 am right now and I just called into work because I need a mental health day. Seriously.

I had the worst day ever yesterday. I cried all the way home. I came to the realization that I really hate my job. I HATE my job. Things are not done the way they should be and when you try to there are always roadblocks. I’m getting tired of being treated like shit when I all I want to do is help people. Now I know why so many nurses hate their job. I love the fact that people can acknowledge the fact that you are super busy but it doesn’t matter because they should come first. Yes, your tissues are that important!

I’m having a rough time right now. I am having a birthday soon and it’s hitting me hard. I think I’m having a midlife crisis or something. I dunno.  I am not where I want to be and it’ s so frustrating.

I’m scared

• That I will be stuck in this job I hate forever
• that as much as I love being a nurse that maybe I choose wrong?
• I hate where I live and I’m worried that I may never have a house
• I’m scared that I won’t be a mom
• I’m afraid that I’ll never be truly happy again because I feel like I’m becoming a very bitter person.

I need to do a lot of praying right now because I am so freaking lost……

Love the new start of the month. It feels like a new beginning. I also love October. It’s my birthday month and back home it’s when the feel of fall really sets in. Oh, how I miss the turning leaves and cool air. I must be homesick because I really want to see some color! It was a little cool this morning. I hope it stays that way. It has been super hot here.  I have 4 days off. Pretty awesome considering that I just a week off! But I’m not complaining!:)  My goal for this month is to work on me. I need to focus on me and really get into my happy place.

I went to the eye doctor already, I had been putting it off for way to long! I also got in to see the doctor. I love my new primary. She is awesome. I had blood levels drawn Monday so I’m just waiting for the results. Don’t think my thyroid levels are right but we’ll see.  I had an EKG and bone density done. EKG was normal (woo-hoo!) put I had to start taking calcium supplements (boo!). One of the joys of not having a thyroid….

So I want to get a massage this month, a pedi and I need to see the GYN. Wish of course I never like see that one but what women does???? I also have to get in to see an Ortho doc for my knee. I’ve been having problems and it’s been swelling up really bad.

So, I’m off to enjoy some computer time and then it’s off to clean my apartment!