The Ramblings of a Strange Little Pixie

Telemetry seemed such a good idea at the time. That is until I had to read a gazillion of little strips and I keep getting them wrong by a stupid little box that I can’t even see and my eyes are now permanently crossed eyed.

I’m suppose to read 10 strips tonight and read two chapters. Yeah that’s not going to happen. Not when I busted my ass to read 6 chapters and fill out the pretest and I was the only one to do it! Yeah, not again.

The class was a good though. Did learn a lot but I think only about 30% stayed with my brain. I’m not use to being in class for 8hrs. GAH!!!  So, I will be resuming my spot on the couch for the next two to three hours being a complete bum.

I’m making a doctor’s appointment next week because I think something is off. Either my thyroid levels are off or I think I might be anemic. Not really sure what’s going on but I’m tired of being exhausted and cold all the time. And not to mention the bitchiness. I have been a real piece of work lately. Speaking of bitches, I haven’t watched the show but what I have seen of the commercials I’m loving Courtney Cox as a bitch on Dirt. Who knew that Monica could be so mean. I love it!

I just got Rendition in the mail today and I’m dying to watch but I have to wait for baby. I have been dying to see this movie and I hope I’m not disappointed.

1. Work is work. Preceptor hasn’t been there for two weeks now. Nor will she be there Saturday when I work. Which means I have to find someone to work with which is bullshit. One of the educators said something about me just having two patients because it’s been 5/6 weeks. Well, yeah, nothing I can do when I don’t have a preceptor!  So yeah, work is real fun.

2. Stupid EKG class, computer class and stupid orientation classes. BLAH. March is going to suck. I have to take an EKG class which is four days for 8 hours. I will go insane. I also have to spend 4hrs. on two separate days for an orientee class. I also have to spend 12 hours in a computer class. What fun!

3. I have booked my photographer. I just need to get the check out to him. I have also purchased some sandalwood fans for the outside ceremony. I need around 80 but only bought 20. I’m only buying a little at a time and when stuff is on sale. I’ve been stalking stuff at The knot and the Wedding Channel like crazy.

4. Finally saw Walk the Line. Ohmigosh, I loved that movie!! Me and baby have been signing Johnny Cash songs way to much now. I have an excuse because hey I am a country girl but it’s funny to hear a Trini signing them:)

5. I splurged on a new comforter and sheets. I really was going to wait to buy one but Shakey coughed a gross hairball on mine and it is old. After dragging my other half through every store that could even possibly carry comforters I finally found one online at Macy’s and fell in love with it. Downside? It won’t be shipping till April. Also splurged on a DVD of Little Mosque on the Prairie. I’ve seen a couple of episodes and the seemed really good so I wanted to see the whole season. Hope they are good!

So I’m off to try and read the 6 chapters in my EKG book that are due for my first class tomorrow. Would anyone like to take my place? Or at least tell me why I wanted to be nurse in the first place because it’s seriously stressing me out! Oh, but the lovely comments from the patients are quite nice……..

I have spent most of my day in bed. I awoke this morning pretty sure that I was dying. But alas, I am alive! I have been feeling crappy all weekend but I guess it just decided to kick my ass today. And I was suppose to work today. But I’m not on the schedule and my preceptor is off again this week so let’s see if they miss me. Most likely not. I work tomorrow and Thursday. I was going to do three days in a row but I now will go in Saturday. Not so bad since I at least get paid more on the weekends.

I’m going to try and start getting organized again. I hate living in an unorganized space. The first place I’m starting in my pantry. I decided that when I opened the door this morning and a can of tomato bisque came hurling on top of my head. Not a good way to start off one’s day.

So I thought I was going to have to take the little one into the vet. He ate 11 hairties. 11! Luckily they all came up and under close supervision he doesn’t seem to have any complications. I don’t know what that crazy kitten was thinking!!!! It gave me a good ‘ole scare.

Oh, I finally got my own patients!! I had one on Thurs. and Friday and two on Saturday!

That’s what I’m feeling right now. I don’t know why I’m feeling this way but I feel ungrounded and not right. I feel like my faith is slipping away and I just have a feeling of unease. I need so much for my life to just be organized and uncomplicated. But I guess I shouldn’t be complaining. I know that people have things much harder than me and I should be grateful for what I have. It’s not that I’m complaining. I just don’t feel right. I feel like there is something missing and I just don’t know what it is…..